THE MAN WAS ALL HEART.

I started this blog to be funny, and maybe put some thoughts down, but this issue is taking up most of my brain and it more than deserves a post on a blog even if its a blog no one reads.

When you first find out that someone you know has passed away a million things come rushing to your brain such as:
- How did he/she die?
-When?
-How should I feel about this?
-How does the family feel?
-What is the impact going to be on my daily life?
-Is there going to be a funeral?
-Should I be crying?

There are answers to all these questions, the only one there isnt a correct answer to is "Why?"

In some religions the answer to "why?" is "The lord works in mysterious ways."
But that's only a theory. Some find it to be helpful. The idea that the reason a loved one passed away is part of God's plan can be comforting. But only to the ones that believe that theory.

One of the most universal answers to WHY is: "Everything happens for a reason."
This one can be comforting as well, but the sadness and loss will more than likely outweigh it.

People have been trying to figure out WHY things happen, and probably we will never know. I think in the matter of losing someone the answer to why is really not all that important. The important part is that we deal with the loss in a healthy way that strengthens our hearts while we are on this planet. (which is easier said than done) And also no one wants to hear "It will get better soon." Look we know it will get better, but just let me freak out for a little bit.
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The world lost my co worker and my buddy the other day. I wasnt the closest person to him by a long shot, but I can safely say he was a buddy that I could count on. Nothing prepares you for sudden tragedy, which is exactly what this was. He passed too soon, and there will be tears for a while from it. We knew he was sick, but we didn't know how bad, we told him to go to the doctor, but he said he didnt have health insurance. This is a sad and frustrating tragedy. That I will always remember and learn from.

I have always been good on judging peoples character, a trait I may have picked up from my father. I will say that my friend was ALL HEART, the guy had one of the biggest hearts I've seen in people. I cant think of a time where he was selfish. He worked his ass off for our store physically and emotionally. When he was on the brink he was still delivering pizzas, the guy was a soldier. Working there meant a lot to him, and he MORE than earned his money. We should name a fucking pizza after him.

Another thing was his sense of humor. If you know me you know I constantly make jokes, but when I do them, I am also gauging who is laughing and if it is real. I appreciate his understanding of my humor and I loved to make him laugh. It was pleasant. It made work fun.

He was a country music lover, a dog lover, work lover, and he loved his friends and family.  I was beginning to think that maybe he was the one that told the Beatles to write a song called "All you need is love"...If all people had his kind of passion for people and things, the world might be a more peaceful place.

RIP



**These are just my thoughts on death, and what I remember of my buddy. these do not reflect everyones thoughts or beliefs, just mine**